I have here a few new works of my dear friend Rosemarie with make up by Ivory Raine, using a new technique in preperation for some new changes in my life.
Next month I will be enrolling at Central Saint Martins as a PhD student in Fashion History, my research question is ‘Why does the image of the Sad Girl sell?’. I will be focusing on melancholy in fashion photography, how it became a norm and what it means culturally (more posts on this soon).
The question is related directly to my livelihood and life’s work as a whole, something that really moved me to start this was a quote from Burroughs.
“We think of the past as being there unchangeable. Actually the past is ours to shape and change as we will.” - The Job Interviews, (Burroughs, 1989)
I am extremely lucky that I have been matched with ideal supervisors for this research Professor Alistair O’Neil (I had approached Alistair due to his work with archiving Deborah Turbeville’s photography and Alexander McQueen’s Collection, I knew he and I would be on the same wave length creatively) and Dr Nicola McCartney who’s work with cinema and feminism will fill in many blanks for me as I map out this research and learn an entirely new academic language to convey my ideas, already Nicola has put me on the road to some exciting ideas.
At heart this is a feminist endeavour, and I hope with their help I can to get to the bottom of what it is I’ve been also contributing to for the last decade.
Around three years ago I decided that I would go back to study and do my PhD in an area surrounding my photographic practice to understand a bit more about what I have been doing and making for the past decade. There was a personal push behind this after I left my teaching post at Norwich University of Arts in 2017, and It’s taken me since then to narrow down what it was/is I’d like to research precisely.
For a long time, I’ve not been able to afford to make new personal work but this somewhat kickstarts me into having to making something vital and needed to reflect on this very question. So, I choose to make my research both theoretical and practical. At the end of my PhD I will produce a book/portfolio with my images and a thesis, and what’s great about this is *I have to*. I’ve sacrificed a lot to make this decision, a normal life, a house, even a studio etc etc, but it’s really something burning that I need to do, to carry on and progress my work to its fullest.
It’s rather daunting going back to university after so long away, but after being a lecturer this feels right, and I very much hope you’ll join me in my findings. I shall try to post links as often as possible as to what direction I am going with my new work, what my theoretical findings are and I’ll keep you all in the loop as you have been all these years, but if I fall silent you’ll also know why.
I don’t have external funding for this, I shall be using the savings I have made in campaigns to make this happen. Therefore, I have added a PayPal donate button to my store to raise some funds for my student fees and I am now running a 10% off sale on my prints (the code is ‘PhD’) that will also help contribute to supplies etc through the coming academic year (I’ll leave this up until Christmas).
And if you happen to be reading this, a special thanks to Kaveh, Ephyra, Sarah, Tina, Michelle, Nina, Angela, my Pa and everyone else who helped and supported me with my application and research so far. Thank you for staying with me and please wish me luck in starting my journey of becoming a Dr (of Photography!).